Thursday, March 12, 2009

What an Awesome God

I am reading a book entitled Next Door Savior by Max Lucado and it prompted me to put a little update on my blog. I started this book a long time ago. I read a few chapters and then set it down and forgot about it. Just like I kind of did with God for a while. I came to Him and rested in His arms but when times turned chaotic I walked away and forgot how it felt to be soothed by my Heavenly Father. I picked up Max Lucado's book tonight and started reading. It's amazing how God speaks to you through just a few words on a page. As you all know, life has been rough, but God is still so good. While reading I felt overwhelming peace and I knew that God was there with me, like He always is. It is easy to get caught up in this Earthly life. To let the worries of this world consume you and drag you down. But when you reach out a hand to God he pulls you up and out of those choppy waters. He lets you rest, knowing that you are safe and He is in control. How wonderful is it to have a father that cares so much for each of us, individually? We all have our own sets of worries and pains and God addresses them individually, providing us with exactly what we need. I know that I cannot walk through this life without my Savior by my side. I am weak, but He is so strong, and he is carrying me as I grow tired from this long road. I hope you all remember to take time out of your day to spend with God. Release all your worries, and place your burdens on Him. That's what he wants. He wants you to lean on Him, to depend on Him, and He will never fail you.

Monday, March 2, 2009


Well, I haven't updated in about a month. And in that month, a lot of stuff has gone on. I wish I could say I was busy with joyful outcomes but to be honest, I've been busy with a lot of pretty heavy stuff. However, God is still great, even in these hard times.
So, if you haven't already heard or read, Chris had surgery to diagnose the nodules that were found in his lungs. The surgeon told us that it appeared to be osteosarcoma in the lymphnode, so he was certain it was osteosarcoma in the lungs as well. Not what we hoped for but God is still good and He has already claimed His victory over Chris' healing. We will just have to wait on God to see when he will heal Chris completely. I still stand firm in the belief that God's intention is to heal Chris completely. THis is just another bump in the road.
Also, Dan and I have hit a few bumps in the road as well. I must admit that the distance has put a strain on our relationship and from time to time we take our life stresses out on eachother. But somehow, that all seems to make us even stronger, putting even more confidence in the fact that we will mkae it through this deployment. We will come out of this a very strong couple, I have faith in that. So, its been rough but God is definitely waitching over us.
Also, it appears that I will be an Aunt. Hmmm...usually this is a joyful occasion for most families but this isn't exactly the ideal situation. My brother has impregnated a girl that he has known for a relatively short amount of time. He seems to be happy about this, and that is good, but the mother-to-be isn't exactly thrilled, and I don't blame her. Becoming a parent at this age (she is a year younger than me) is a very scary thing. Also, this unborn child is creating quite a bit of family tension. My father will not acknowledge the baby, because he still beleives that my brother has not proven himself as a man. I, however, will love this child just like you'd love a brother or sister. It is not the child's fault that this isn't an ideal situation and this baby needs the best possible chance at life that it can get. With that said, my brother really isn't talking to me, sadly. I didn't do anything wrong, he is just angry towards my father, and the things that my father has given me while supporting me during school. That makes me sad because even though me and my brother have never been close, he is still my brother and I love and miss him. I pray everyday that Bryan will be able to see that and put his anger towards my father and I aside so that we can heal our broken relationship.
So, that has pretty much been the last month, minus a few things that I do not wish to write about. Needless to say, it's been rough and in the past week I have found myself in kind of a deep depression, like a rut. So all I can do is pray anf thank God for all the blessings he continues to give me. Any other prayers would be greatly appreciated as well. Ged bless.